I suck. I admit it. I've let the entire Summer go by without a single blog post....
It's not that I don't have anything to say....Cuz with 6 kids, and a hubby....Life is ALWAYS happening. I'm just ULTRA-CRAPPY about engaging myself.
Well---The Summer is GONE. I still have 4 kiddos in school and my goodness they are growing up! I find myself aching with regret - thinking "where has the time gone?!" And feeling like I am missing so much of their lives.
I miss being a full-time mommy. I really do.
The house keeps getting quieter and quieter, every year...and I just feel kinda sad about it.
NF-wise, things are "stable" --which is ALWAYS a good thing. But anyone dealing with this knows, it's like holding your breath for as long as you can hold it, until the next MRI...So, while I feel great about "stable"...It's like I can never quite feel comfortable - 'cuz the next MRI could say something different.
Living in the moment is hard for me....I've never been good at it.
She's a SENIOR this year...How in the heck did this happen?
C spent the Summer in South Carolina with a friend of hers...and when she came back...I was impressed with how grown up she was. She's always been feisty and spirited and this is what will make this young womans dreams come true. She knows what she wants...and she knows how to go after it! I'm so proud of her!
Rachel is a SOPHOMORE and still just as spunky as ever. She got to go to camp this Summer and is loved by the counselors there! She is growing up so fast...Her goal this year is to try to get me to let her drive my car! LOL
Riker is in 8th grade this year! His voice literally changed overnight! He is definitely a teenager now! He had a great Summer discovering Fortnite and going camping with his best friend! He is still a mama's boy, which I will hang onto for as long as I can! :)
Brooklyn is our 6th grader! Seems like yesterday - I was taking her Kindergarten pictures! Brook is amazing...she still LOVES to draw, and has become quite an artist! She has a art website that she created, to sell some of her creations! Check it out -> https://www.gearbubble.com/gbstore/mochas-merch Show her some love -
All in all- Its been a quiet Summer...The theater has been hoppin' and I've just been livin' life!
I hope all of you are doing well!
Thanks for always supporting me, even if I'm not blogging!
I hate trying new things. I do. It's a fact. When pushed out of my comfort zone, I shut-down...I retreat. I cower.
It's SCARYYYY out there....so if I don't HAVE to...I like to stay nice and cozy in my little area.
But....What does staying cozy get me...? Besides warm feet...
Over the past 3 years, I have been forced out of my little cozy-zone....and into a position that I had very little confidence that I could be successful at...And to my surprise--I'm kinda loving it.
Some of you know, I am a manager at a very busy movie theatre...one of THE MOST busiest theatres in the country!! I juggle scheduling, hiring, firing, training, and all the details of making sure your movie plays smoothly on the big screen. I never - in a MILLION YEARS thought I would be capable of this kind of job...But, yet here I am.
Out of this fear I had, came this amazing strength and confidence...!! Ask my hubby...I have changed, and grown, despite my resistance -- And there was a LOT of resistance!
What have I learned during this process..? To STRETCH beyond myself! To take a leap of faith and do something that pushes me....! That's the ONLY way, I'm going to grow!
Just doooo iiiitttt!
***I am launching this blog again...I know that it has slowly died, and I'm incredibly sad about it...My goal is to blog AT LEAST once a week...and try to build it back up. I have a lot to talk about--So many things have happened--So get ready NF world...Kristi is BACK!
Sometimes, things are not what they appear to be...Have you ever been told that..? If I believed everything a doctor has told me..I'd probably be living secluded someplace...Never venturing outside.
I had a follow-up with an OB/GYN the other day....Almost exactly a month after a previous doctor diagnosed me with Yoda. Measuring 9cm at that time, I was told that a hysterectomy was in my near future.
Finally - a reason for the pain. I wasn't too upset about losing my uterus...I mean I have been blessed so much by it, so the fear I was feeling, wasn't about that...It was just about --well--losing a body part....The body part that had worked so hard for me.
This OB/GYN wanted to perform all her own tests and imaging and we found that the "mass" had grown 2 CM....That's A LOT. She ordered a biopsy right away...
I was nervous. Well...more like petrified!
The Dr. gave me a paper napkin and had me undress.
The nurse brought in the instruments...and I sat there for what seemed like hours....
So the doctor comes in...explains the procedure and gets to it.... I'll spare you the gruesome details...
During the biopsy a gush of "water'....What the heck!?!
Long story short....This "MASS" was fluid filled...like when a womb fills up with amniotic fluid when there is a baby....But I had no baby....just the fluid...A Blighted Ovum. No Tumor.
After another ultrasound showed the "mass" was now gone....the doctor explained how the human body is "freaky"...and does things that can't be explained.
I do still have the "friends" of Yoda....Fibroids...that will be watched...And we will wait for the biopsy to come back before doing anything else.
This is GOOD news. It made me realize that medicine isn't perfect....Doctors aren't perfect.