I didn't grow up as an overly optimistic person. In fact, there are times when I think I am hard-wired to be a frustrated- angry woman....Just like my mother. (There are even times, when I actually think, that way of life would be easier)
I have to work HARD....REALLY HARD sometimes to push out all of the negative - toxic feelings I have.
I got this e-mail from a father, who is having a very difficult time accepting the diagnosis of NF for his 3 yr old son. He's angry (I understand) And he can't see the good in anything right now. His words "I feel hopeless".
I feel this way too. I sink into despair. The amount of guilt I feel sometimes, when it comes to NF is unbearable.
But then what...What do I do with all those emotions? Where do they go?
Those emotions - ALL OF THEM - are inside of me. They are real.
But they transform into the energy I need to push myself forward, instead of allowing them to swallow me into a pit I cannot get out of.
HOW? It's a very deliberate effort. I recognize what it feels like....And what it looks like when life's "Stuff" starts to take its toll....And I know that everyone around can feel and see it too. So...I make a choice.
It's like that saying-
"Whenever you do a thing, act as if all the world were watching". Thomas Jefferson
"THRIVING Takes ACTION- When you CHOOSE to TAKE ACTION...Instead of letting life act upon YOU....That's when you THRIVE!" - Kristi Hopkins