I don't like posting only when there is bad news, but this is where I am. I had put off going to the doctor long enough. I scheduled a full physical, including the dreaded vag check.
I have a history of pre-cancerous cells showing up, so I knew I had to do it.
Anyways, I'll spare you the details.
You're welcome.
I got sent to a specialist, who discovered a 9cm mass in my uterus. I swear, when I saw the images, I thought the doc was tricking me, and it was a baby, instead of a tumor.
It's a tumor. A baseball sized tumor. Thanks for nothing Arnold!
So...what now? Well, I have yet to see a specialist, or a surgeon...or anyone other than the doc who gave me the news....But what's likely....? A hysterectomy. A biopsy...Then - who knows..?
The thought of a hysterectomy makes me sad. Noooo...Not because I want more kids....It's because I already began mourning the loss of something that gave me my beautiful children. After 3 miscarriages and 6 full-term pregnancies....Me and my uterus have been through a lot....Like a LOT!
How could my uterus betray me like this...?
So, anyways....This is only PART of the reason I have been missing in action lately. The other part is this job I have....It sucks of so much of my life....And after dealing with the job, my family, bills, etc etc...I feel like I literally have nothing left to give.
I miss writing. I miss the cool comments I'd get.
But I promise...I will blog my way through this tumor situation...I think it is an important experience to go through, and maybe I can help someone along the way, going through the same stuff.
Thanks to my readers - who still check in on me and my blog...It means a lot!
As Always- Still THRIVING!
-Kristi
