Monday, July 26, 2010

Doctor Knows Best.....


Last week was filled with many doctors appointments for Bailey.... We asked lots of questions and got lots of answers. An NF team came in to examin Bailey and were quite interested in her case.
Bailey has Neurofibromatosis, and a brain tumor that first appeared to be an Acustic Neuroma or Meningioma....but a further look into this, the doctors aren't so sure.
So what is it? No one can be sure, until it is removed....but now the doctors are thinking of NOT doing a surgery. Instead they may watch the tumor for growth. Now I know these guys have YEARS of experience and probably know what they are talking about, but this just doesn't seem right.
The drs in Spokane were all set to do surgery and get the tumor out of there...while the drs here are using the watch and wait approach. Who is right? And how do we know which direction to go?
So, while Bailey is away at camp, the doctors and I are forming a plan. The first thing we need to do is rule in or out Cushing's. This is necessary because if it IS Cushing's, we can find out if THIS will require surgery--possibly coordinate it with the brain tumor surgery.
Bailey will see Endocrinology next week and have some more tests....But for now, she is having a blast at camp. Living in the moment is where we are at right now.

Thursday, July 22, 2010

Getting Ready For CAMP!!!!

Bailey is so excited for her very first trip to the CTF camp! She leaves on Saturday, and has actually been packed and ready, for over a week! LOL

The camp is in Salt Lake City and the intinerary was just amazing!
*Raging Waters *The Hogle Zoo *Boondocks
I know that this will be the time of her life...and she will meet some amazing people!
Bailey - Boo, have an amazing time at camp...take it all in sweetheart! Make sure to take lots of pictures so that you can come home and share them with us!
I will miss you like crazzzzzy!!
Interested in attending CTF camp next year? Go to www.ctf.org

Monday, July 19, 2010

Neurologist, Neurosurgeon, Endocrinologist...Oh MY!


This is a big day for all of us....Neurofibromatosis is going to be met head-on today.
Bailey has been telling me about this sharp - shooting pain, on the right side of her head, behind her ear. I'm not sure if this is one of those things where she knows she has a tumor in that area, and "creates" the pain..or if this is something real. Either way, it will for sure be brought up at todays appointments.
I'm nervous for today....Not for me, but for Bailey, who really has no idea about what faces her. Maybe that's a good thing....maybe not fully understanding this is what is protecting her from freaking out.
Still she remains strong...and that inspires me!
Lastnight, we were talking about our doctors visits and she brought down something she had made for me. She took a long sleeved shirt, stuffed it with fluff, sewed all the openings shut and hugged it as she handed it to me.
"Now you can have something to hug, when I am in the hospital", she said. WOW....what could I say to that? She went on to say that she wanted to make hundreds of these "pillows" to give to children who are in the hospital, so when their parents can't be with them, they can hug it, and not be sad.
What an idea. Her heart is so soft...this girl is amazing!
I told her that we could look into creating some of her pillows, before her surgery, and she got excited! We both hugged her creation and drew out a design for the pillows. My 'Thriving' little girl....I know she won't let NF pull her down....I know what faces her, will only help her grow stronger.
We will do an update after we return from our appopintments today....THANKS SO MUCH FOR THE PRAYERS and WELL WISHES--God Bless!

Motivational Monday



STRENGTH
by Sylvia Kelly
It takes strength to be certain,
It take courage to have doubts.
It takes strength to fit in,
and courage to stand out.
It takes strength to share a friend's pain
It take courage to feel your own pain.
It takes strength to hide your own pain,
and courage to show it and deal with it.
It takes strength to stand guard,
It takes courage to let down your guard.
It takes strength to conquer,
And Courage to surrender.
I just loved this. When I began trying to come up with something to write this morning, I found it very tough. The kids were loud and distracting me.....Every 5 seconds it was "mommy" this or "mommy" that......
I made a pancake breakfast, with hot maple syrup*, in hopes that they would go outside afterwards and let mommy work---Yeah Right!
I began to think about this week...and what it holds for our in terms of being courageous and strong. I am so amazed with the amount of courage my children show me.....oftentimes, it is THEM, who give ME the courage to face what is in front of me.
To Bailey: You are so strong....so brave...so courageous! I know that sometimes what is happening is scary....But I want you to know, I will ALWAYS be there for you!
XXX

Thursday, July 15, 2010

Bailey

Bailey and I saw Dr. Weiss in Arvada yesterday and I have to say....I was impressed from the moment I shook her hand. She noticed the bracelet on my arm, and asked about it. I told her it was for Neurofibromatosis Awareness. She was impressed with the fact we are a family who 'THRIVES with NEUROFIBROMATOSIS'.

Our visit consisted of the doctor taking a full history and asking many many questions about what Bailey is experiencing. (The brain tumor, the Cushings disorder, hearing loss, vision history, depression, weight gain) I felt both bad and good.....Bad because we had this huge list of medical issues, and good because this doctor was listening to me! She wasn't rushing me or making feel like I was just one of many.

Bailey had a full physical (head to toe)--and the doctor noted some concerns. First she feels that Bailey may have an estrogen deficiancy. I won't go into detail, as to respect my daughter, but there are definant signs that go along with a hormone imbalance. Next, she agrees with the diagnoses of Cushing's, although this has yet to be officially determined, she has a tenative diagnoses. Another thing... Bailey has experienced significant weight gain.....It is yet to be determined, if this is because of Cushing's or because of the hormone imbalance.

We left feeling really good. The dr. said she would call us back with names and numbers of all the drs we needed to be in contact with, and I was shocked when she actually called lastnight, ready to give me this list.

Another call back this morning and I was spinning with all this information that was being dropped in my lap. A few deep breaths and some notebook paper to organize my thoughts, and I had scheduled the Neurologist, Neurosurgeon and Endocrinologist, all for next week. The NF clinic evern called me, and we will be visiting them in September, after Bailey has healed up some from the surgery.

So after the appnts were set up, I got another call telling me that Bailey's insurance was not "active" yet. So all the appnts that were scheduled would have to be "out of pocket". NOT GOOD NEWS. :(

I spent another few hours, digging and calling so many people, trying to find out how we could make the insurance kick in, by the time we had to go to our appnts. I was tense and frustrated because I was getting no where!

One last call to make, I kept my tone sweet, but inside I was ready to break down. The lady on the other end was patiently listening to everything I had to say, even breaking in with sighs of sympathy.

She told me the same thing the others told me, except that she would make sure to look into it, and call me back........The call came just before closing for them, and she said Bailey should have her medical by tomorrow, and that SHE would call as soon as it was active.

A very up and down day today, that ended with a high!

Next week will prove to be one of our busiest weeks medically, that we have ever had. I am so happy to be on this road-though. Bailey is just going with the flow, and pretty mellow about things. I know she thinks about her brain tumor...and even gets scared about the surgery.....but she is so brave, and knows all that is involved with this.

Thank you all for the prayers and well wishes---it really means a lot to us, to have people thinking of Bailey....we are truly lucky to have so many loving and caring friends.

HUGS