Today is our appointment with The Rocky Mountain Lions Eye Institute. I've been both dreading and looking forward to this day for over a month. I don't know what to expect, but was told to plan for an "all day" visit with specialists who will hopefully give us some answers.
Braden had his 'every-6 month-eye check' last month and the doctor told us that "suspicious calcium and masses" were found way back in Braden's right eye. This to go along with Braden's already diagnosed LEFT SIDE optic glioma.
But this didn't appear to be a glioma. It's "something else" our doctor said.
After Braden left the for a bathroom break the doctor showed me images of what he found. Technology is so cool...And I was able to see the nerves, vessels and optic nerve. The doctor pointed to the areas of concern and told me that what we were looking at COULD BE early signs of Cancer.
I've been told many COULD BE's in my life, but THIS....I felt dizzy and sick. I sat down on the chair next to the computer, where the images were flashing -- Braden came back into the room and sat in the exam chair.
Nothing more was said directly to us....Except for "We need to send you to a specialist."
And this is where we are...About to head out for our all day eye appointment....And I realize, just like the day Bailey was diagnosed with her brain tumors and went on chemo....That I have a choice to make.
I can CHOOSE to spend my day worried and fretting over the COULD BE....
I can CHOOSE to spend the day with my teenage son (something that rarely happens) and be happy.
I know the path I am taking today!
(An Update will be posted about the results as soon as I know them)