Yesterday, I took two of my children out to run some errands, stopping at the Doctors, the bank, then Wal-mart.
I definitely have days where my NF seems more noticeable then other days( probably more to ME than to others)...and it seemed this was the case yesterday.
I had a nurse behind the counter at the doctors office look at me, snicker, then look away. I am very sensitive to this and I KNEW what they were looking at. I fixed my hair over the tumor on my eye brow and shifted my eyes to the ground. I finished my business, frustrated and wondering how and why people could act this way.
Our next stop was the bank where I made some deposits. We decided to walk into the lobby, instead of using the drive-up, since the kids needed to use the potty. I walked up to the teller and she looks at me and gives me this unpleasant, pity look, avoiding my eyes. "What the HECK?" I think to myself. She must see the tumors too. "I'm a freak!" My pulse was raising at the ignorance of these people. I just wanted to get my errands done and get home!
One more stop and I COULD get home. Wal-mart. I needed to stop and pick-up my contacts, so I went right in the vision center and sat down with a very nice lady to get my new contacts. She says to me, "Honey....Do you know you have paint or marker on your face?"
I looked in the mirror and saw a big purple streak running up the left side of my nose up to my forehead! Yeah. Nice. Seems the marker fun I had with Brooklyn that morning carried over that whole day.
I spend so much time worrying about what others think of me...I wish I would learn to just chill out and not worry so much.
So that's my Wacky Wednesday Story....I can look back now and laugh....I'm kinda wondering why my 5 yr old didn't point out that mommy had purple on her face....but maybe to him, that's normal....which is kinda cool!
Have an AWESOME and COLORFUL DAY!