We will soon be faced with a decision.
For the last 2 years we have held off on the decision to cut the acoustic nerve tumor that rests on the right side of Bailey's brain. (this was NOT just based on OUR choice, but a recommendation from Bailey's neurosurgeon who felt leaving the tumor, would be better than cutting it out)
However, over the last 2 yrs, even though this tumor has remained "stable"...Bailey's symptoms have not.
The dizziness that Bailey faces every single day has impacted her life so much, that surgery may now be the best option. But this does not come without serious repercussions.
We have been told, based on the location of this tumor, that surgery would leave Bailey completely deaf on her right side. Facial paralysis is likely....And, surgery would not guarantee that Bailey's dizziness would go away.
So what do we do? Take a risk and HOPE that Bailey's symptoms would at least get better?
I'm scared. This is brain surgery!
There are some days when I just throw up my hands. And that's when I actually feel the relief.
*Will I ever learn?*
I know that God is in control -- But it's ME that has to make this decision! And it's Bailey that has to live with the outcome of this decision!
August 10th...Bailey will have an MRI and we will meet with our oncology team and the Neurosurgeon and try to come up with the best plan....
And for now, my hands will remain in the air, and we will just continue to live in the NOW! :)