Thursday, November 16, 2017

It's a Tumor.

I don't like posting only when there is bad news, but this is where I am.   I had put off going to the doctor long enough.  I scheduled a full physical, including the dreaded vag check.

I have a history of pre-cancerous cells showing up, so I knew I had to do it.

Anyways, I'll spare you the details.

You're welcome.

I got sent to a specialist, who discovered a 9cm mass in my uterus.  I swear, when I saw the images, I thought the doc was tricking me, and it was a baby, instead of a tumor.

It's a tumor.  A baseball sized tumor.  Thanks for nothing Arnold!

So...what now?  Well, I have yet to see a specialist, or a surgeon...or anyone other than the doc who gave me the news....But what's likely....?  A hysterectomy.  A biopsy...Then - who knows..?

The thought of a hysterectomy makes me sad.  Noooo...Not because I want more kids....It's because I already began mourning the loss of something that gave me my beautiful children.  After 3 miscarriages and 6 full-term pregnancies....Me and my uterus have been through a lot....Like a LOT!

How could my uterus betray me like this...?

So, anyways....This is only PART of the reason I have been missing in action lately.  The other part is this job I have....It sucks of so much of my life....And after dealing with the job, my family, bills, etc etc...I feel like I literally have nothing left to give.

I miss writing.  I miss the cool comments I'd get.

But I promise...I will blog my way through this tumor situation...I think it is an important experience to go through, and maybe I can help someone along the way, going through the same stuff.

Thanks to my readers - who still check in on me and my blog...It means a lot!

As Always- Still THRIVING!